i just want to start off here by saying that reputations are a very hard thing to maintain. but a reputation is soemthing that you need to do all you possibly can to take care of, and to keep clean.
now ive had my fair share of problems through out highschool, and stuff with having people start rumors about me. but it seems like everytime i finally get a clean slate, someone else comes along and screws it up for me once again. this has happened to me about 4 different times in the past year. NOT including the blow up with my psycho ex boyfriend, who convinced everyone that i was a "tramp" to put it at the least. (just to be clear i am NOT and will NEVER be a tramp, or anything else anyone is saying about me.)
even though the rumors that are going around about me are not any truer than the sentance, "the sky is purple!", it still hurts that everyone has taken a liking to asking me if i truly am a tramp (since i wont actually say the words they are calling me, i will just continue to substitute the word Tramp, where they have said others. because tramp sounds a lot nicer than the words i am currently being called and accused of.)
im begining to think that people in america truly have nothing better to do than gossip and start drama that isnt theirs to start. but hey, i guess whatever floats your boat, but to be clear.. and rather blunt, if your going to talk shit about me behind my back.. how about you say it to my face. id much rather be called a dirty name to my face, than hear it through the grape vine from another so called "friend". dont you agree? i think you agree. cuz most people that care about their reputation.. would most likely agree with that statement.
"im not running, its a little different now." and "if its a fight im ready to go. i wouldnt put my money on the other guy, if you know what i know that i know." both quotes from my favorite song called "your going down" by the Sick Puppies. i think this pretty much sums up how i feel about whats going on in my life right now with this rumor problem that keeps circulating.
right now i have the people that truly are my friends standing by my side.. anthony (happy 18th BIRTHDAY!!! your old.), alex, criz, adrian, danny and tyler, they are like brothers, also im thankful to have tyler back in my life. even though our fight was legit.. im glad we are talking again. and im so glad they are always there for me. louisa, Trisha, and celeste, same thing. they are like sisters, and im REALLY glad to have celeste back in my life as well. i missed her greatly. and i love them. my actual sister stephanie and her family as well as my family here at home.. they always help me through all my problems. i couldnt possibly ask for a better support system than the people i talked about in this paragraph. i love all of them SO much and i thank god everyday that i have each and every one of them.
i guess in conclusion to this blog, i will say this last thing. i forgive you. as i always do. (you know who you are) but this is, as they say, the straw that broke the camels back. (not that im insinuating that i am a camel. because i am certainly not.) but you get the point. im praying for this whole situation. i truly hope god lets us all learn something valuable from it all.
peace, love, joy, blogging.
this is savannah, blogging from niles, time for rest.
have a great night everyone.
-♥ me.
